A quick blog before I go to bed. The DayQuil did not work too well, but no matter... I am home and the NyQuil is calling me! Work was interesting with my trying to get all of my log in's situated (really hard to concentrate when you are feeling like crap lemme tell ya!), and trying to fill out my security clearance paperwork. It makes me a little nervous, because what if I filled it out wrong? What if I forgot something? Will I get fired? I just need to relax and try to sleep this ick off.
A few things first. How many of you with spouses in the military have nightmares before they deploy? By nightmares I mean death dreams. I am very curious because a few friends of mine are having dreams like that, and I have had one myself. I honestly cannot remember if I had death dreams before the last deployment... but seriously, what is the point in this????
I am really annoying myself because if I think about the deployment at all I have the worst thoughts ever, thoughts that I do not want to have or even come close to imagining. I do not want to talk to my husband about this because he has enough to deal with... so I have my few lady friends in the same situation as me to lean to.
I am trying my hardest to be normal and truck on, but every time I look at him I say to myself "Only XX days till he is gone." I hate pre deployment, and I hate what it turns me into while I try not to become what I hate. Just sayin'.
On that note, I am going to down some NyQuil and crawl under my warm covers... I can hear them calling me :)
P.S. If there are any military spouses reading this, please let me know about the dream thing and your experience.