For a while I have been meaning to mention in my posts that I read everyone's comments, I just do not reply all of the time because I am not sure if people will stop back by the post to check to see if I replied, and as far as I know there is no way for people to get emails to replies on comments (if someone out there knows how I can do this please let me know).
I appreciate all of my readers, I love the comments I get, and I am really sorry for being so bitchy lately. I am not the most sympathetic person in the world, I can be depending on the person or situation, but for the most part I find myself rolling my eyes and breathing a deep sigh. Lately I get annoyed easily and find myself not really feeling up to chatting or making small talk. I do not feel depressed, I just feel really touchy.
I feel bad for how I have been, and I really do not mean to offend anyone... so if I have I am sorry. If I do upset you, shoot me a message and let me know. Trust me, if you are upset with me the best thing to do is let me know, because chances are I have done something that I am not aware of. Do not sugar coat it, and do not lie... that causes more harm than good. I am reminded of my removal from the FRG (and I am really grateful for that removal). I was told they wanted me to step down because my husband was being moved to be attached to another unit. I knew it was bullshit. I am not stupid. I knew it was because I was not the best fit for the position, I will agree with that, I KNEW I was not a good fit!!! I just wish they could have been honest with me instead of lying to my face. Because I was lied to I lost respect for them instantly. I am a big girl, I can handle the truth. I told them that I was relieved that I was being asked to step down, because honestly I was not wanting to do this anymore... and rather than be honest with me then, they continued on with the lies.
I have been lied to a lot since I have been here, and quite frankly I am sick of it. I am an honest person... brutally honest. Some people can handle that, some people cannot. My friends have no issue with telling me "Laura, you are getting out of hand" or something along those lines when I am being too negative. I appreciate it, I really do. Sometimes I need a kick in the ass to make me realize how I am acting in order to straighten up.