Friends vs. Aquaintances

I value my friends, I love my friends. I don't have a whole lot of friends, I have a lot of acquaintances, but few friends. Why? Because I choose my friends carefully. The people that I choose to become a friend are the people that I can say anything to and they still love me. They are people that can call me out when I am doing something wrong and I still love them. I would rather have a few close friends than hundreds of people that really don't care about me.

If I need a shoulder to cry on who is better to be there? A friend who will pop open that wine bottle or walk you into your retail therapy session, or an acquaintance that will probably tell a bunch of people you don't know all about your problems?

I don't need people in my life that pretend to be nice to my face and then stab me in the back as soon as I turn around. It has happened WAY too many times, and believe me, I have learned my lesson. So when I seclude myself from everyone and don't want anything to do with anyone apart from my own family and few close friends, it is because I do not trust anyone or I know what is being said behind closed doors (why is it people think because I am blonde I am stupid?).

I am in one of those moods right now where I want to walk around with my middle finger up in the air and tell everyone "FUCK YOU!!!" I have what I need in life, who I need in life, and I am quite fine with things the way they are...


There is one problem here. My husband is very protective of me; and while I do not care about people being two faced because I know that is how they are anyway, he gets upset because he does not like people being unfair or two faced for no damned reason. I tell him to let it go, it does not matter, if I do not care, he should not care... but he gets mad. I just take comfort in knowing when the shit hits the fan I have a clear conscience of everything I have done. I am real. Take me as I am or leave me alone.