How I Lost It

I figured it was time for me to explain in depth how I went from 225lbs to 147 lbs (so far). Yes I have lost 78 lbs so far in less than a year. It was NOT easy, I worked HARD for this!!! I will tell you how I ate, how I thought, how I exercised... I will tell all, but I have to say that while this worked for me, it might not work for you but I sure as fuck hope it does!

This picture represents 100 lbs of fat... so take just 22lbs away from that and you see what I lost! OMG!!!

 (picture used from http://gastricallychanged.blogspot.com/2010_07_01_archive.html)

OK, so April of 2011 I decided that I HAVE to lose weight. I was tired of being ashamed and embarrassed of how I looked and wanted to be thin and healthy again. So I decided to diet...

I looked online to find out my ideal weight. I found Web.MD and eventually Sparkpeople.com. Both sites are awesome to help you find where you are, where you should be and how to get where you need to be. You log food eaten (calories, fat, etc), calories burned, weight, inches, etc. It is an awesome tool and I highly recommend either sites.  

 

At first I combined the Slim-Fast Special K diet. I had a shake or meal bar for breakfast and lunch, a 100 calorie snack in between, and I ate a "sensible dinner" which for me consisted of something less than 500 calories from the frozen food aisle. I had my own foods, my children had their own foods... we ate separately. I do have to say that I did take medication, I was (and still am) on Metformin for my blood sugar, and I started taking Alli to help with whatever fat I was eating. Alli is NOT a diet pill, it is an aid. You must still eat healthy and low fat, Alli is not a "free pass".

**Taking Alli does NOT mean that you can pop a pill and go eat at McDonald's and you are OK... it means you can pop a pill, go to McDonald's and have a salad and maybe a few nuggets unless you want greasy farts**

Slowly I started changing the way I ate. Replacing the Slim-Fast or Special K snacks for fresh fruit or veggies and then finally finding new recipes and learning how to cook healthy. I made EVERYONE eat healthy in my house. You cannot eat healthy while everyone in your house is eating junk and processed food. Once in a while I would get them a treat, but I made sure I got my own treat... something low-fat or sugar free. I started eating like a diabetic. I stopped frying foods. I started using wheat bread, whole grain pasta... I learned to READ FOOD LABELS!!!! In the beginning I would use measuring cups to measure out portion sizes... it helped me to learn what a portion was and how much I should be eating; it also helped me to log my food better when I knew exactly how much I was eating.

I stopped drinking soda and started drinking water. Soda is sooo bad for you! Diet soda or not, no matter... it is bad. Just look at the amount of sodium in one soda! So take that and multiply it by how many you have in a day... think you might be retaining a bit of water? I allowed myself one diet soda a day, and today I don't even want soda anymore!

I had lost about 38 lbs before I plateaued. I had lost almost 40 lbs on diet alone, but my body stopped losing... I realized it was time for me to start exercising. Now anyone who knows me knows that I HATED to exercise, it was a 4 letter dirty word for me. I would make all kinds of excuses why I could not do it... but because of the plateau I had to do something! I started going to the gym and working out for at LEAST 30 minutes a day. Eventually I started to actually LIKE exercising and gradually built up the time I spent at the gym. I actually got crabby if I did not exercise for 3 days or more! We have an XBOX 360, so I bought the Kinect and purchased Zumba. I had a Wii and started using the Wii Fit. I admit I did not use the Zumba for a while because it was hard and within a few minutes I was winded, but after I had built up my endurance at the gym on the treadmill and bike Zumba was bearable. I started taking Zumba classes twice a week as well... all by myself... and that was scary at first, but there is one thing I learned throughout this experience is that I could not rely on others to motivate me, I had to motivate MYSELF! If I had a gym buddy that pussed out on me I had to go anyway...

Here are a few more tips:

• Weight loss buddies are good to have, but it does not always work out... you need to make yourself responsible for your weight loss
• Buy a good digital scale. I got one that is accurate within .2 lbs... so even when I only lost .4 lbs I could see it and it motivated me to do more
• Make mini goals- I had my main goal, my goal weight, but I also had mini goals in between. My first was to hit below 200 lbs, 2nd was to reach 175 and weight less than my husband, and I also had goals to not be obese, not be overweight... be a HEALTHY weight! Going from 225 to 142 lbs seems a long way off, but mini goals in between make it a bit easier. 
• Do NOT set yourself up for failure. Don't do more than you can handle. If you fall off the wagon get right back on it! Don't over exert yourself at the gym, you will only hurt yourself and then you won't want to go back!
• Take a full length before pic. No matter how ashamed and embarrassed you are of how you look you will want to look back and see where you started. I regret not having that...
• Measure yourself from the beginning! I started measuring myself halfway through and I still wonder "How many inches have I REALLY lost?" Take measurements once a month.
• You should not weigh yourself daily... some say once a week is good. I am obsessive, so I weighed myself daily... it kept me on track.
• Don't deny yourself. If you want ice cream, have some! I would have ice cream every now and again, but I would spoon some into a teacup. It kept me in check. I still have my coffee with flavored creamers... I NEED that! 
• NO EXCUSES! Never say I can't or I do not have the time. You can always find the time to exercise. That time you use on Facebook cut it down by 30 min and work out! Think you are too fat or out of shape? No money for a gym? NO EXCUSE! Walking on the treadmill, or just WALKING ANYWHERE is still exercise, burns calories, and IT COUNTS!!!

You are your only reason for failure, you are the only one holding yourself back. You have no right to complain about being fat if you are doing nothing about it! You cannot say "I want to lose weight" while stuffing your face with fatty, salty, fried foods! I have PCOS, and for a while I used it as an excuse for why I was fat and why I could not lose weight, but I proved that it can be done... you just have to really want to... and I mean REALLY want to!

April 2011 I was 225 pounds and SQUEEZING into size 16 jeans. Now (February 2012) I am 147 pounds and wearing between a 4 and a 7 (depending on brand). Seriously, if I can do it, so can you... the biggest challenge is retraining your mind. 

Facebook Rant... SMH

I get so annoyed every time I log into Facebook lately. I see people that I grew up with, or went to school with writing statuses that make me cringe. Do these people ever grow up? Do they ever learn anything?

One person posts pictures of her daughters (that are around the same age as my daughter) posing with "duck face", wearing makeup, and wearing skimpy clothes. Not only are her daughters posing with duck face, some pictures they are posing in a provocative manner; you know, hand on hip, hip slung out, push the chest out dear!!!!

OK, is she BEGGING for her daughters to give her twenty grandchildren before they even reach adulthood??? I know I was a teen mom, but the LAST thing I want is for my daughter to become sexually active before she is ready. My oldest son is almost 21 and he hasn't done anything yet *crosses fingers*.

I just do not understand how a mother can seem PROUD that her daughters are looking like mini tramps.

I see adults threatening to fight someone over WORDS. I see adults actually fighting over BULLSHIT! I see adults having stupid Facebook arguments and airing their dirty laundry online. Come ON PEOPLE!!! You are in your 20's and 30's... FUCKING ACT LIKE IT!!! You have children and THIS is what they have to look up to? NO WONDER OUR SOCIETY IS FUCKED!

It is NOT COOL for a person in their 20's and 30's with child/children to be out partying all the time like they have no responsibilities! And stop fucking WHINING when your world falls apart in front of you! You are an adult, and if you acted like it maybe things would not have turned out like they did!!!

OK, I know this is small and maybe trivial to some of you, but I am so sick of seeing people LIE on their status updates. Come on... really? Who are you really trying to lie to? Yourself? Don't say you have the best child when you have no control over them. A three year old that speaks to you like YOU are the child? Oh real cute... *rolls eyes*

I am not saying that people should not have fun sometimes, but take responsibility for your actions and BE RESPONSIBLE! Stop blaming everyone else for your problems and take a hard look at yourself. What kind of world are we creating for the future generations when we are raising a bunch of selfish heathens that expect everything to be handed to them? Where is the competition in school and youth sports? This EVERYONE WINS thing is bullshit. I remember on field day in school it was a competition. There were first, second, and third place ribbons... not "participation ribbons" for everyone. You may think you are creating a sense of teamwork or something, but the children still see it as a competition (especially the ones who know they won). Instill that sense of competition in them! Show them they have to work to earn a reward! Show them that hard work pays off!!!!

One last thing, I wish people would stop trying to pretend that their lives are perfect with no problems. Everyone has problems, no one is perfect... your attempts at trying to convince everyone that your life is perfect is eye rolling and gag inducing bullshit. Be real. Stop pretending you are someone you are not! Don't be nice to someone's face then talk shit about them behind their back. We are not in high school anymore. If I do not like someone I do not talk to them... plain and simple. 

Ugh... I am just so ready to get back to the States, away from all of the drama that Baumholder has.. the fake ass people, the high school antics.... but unless I start making cuts to my Facebook as well a lot of the bullshit is going to follow me. It is not just people here... and I need to realize that just because I knew them way back when, or just because we USED to be friends, does not mean they are friends now. Some people never change... and that is not always a good thing.

Old Year- New Year

Well, it is 2012... so much happened last year, and I am thankful that it is another year behind me. 

I want to go over the things I am grateful for from 2011...

1) I lost over 70 pounds. I weighed over 200 lbs last year. I felt disgusting, looked disgusting, and my marriage was having issues because of it. Here is a comparison picture from me exactly one New Years eve to the next:

I am so proud that I was able to do something I never thought I could do! But with a lot of self control, determination, and motivation I was able to almost accomplish my goal! I only have 10 pounds to go :)

2) I am grateful that I ran a 5k... well, I did not run it, I walked/jogged it, but I DID IT! This is not something I would have even considered doing in the past!

3) I am grateful that this deployment is almost over. Almost a year ago my husband deployed to Afghanistan, and I know that with the new year comes my husband- home to us again... sometime...

4) I am grateful for my friends... without them I would not have been able to make it through this deployment with my marriage in tact.... I swear it. The biggest source of strength for me was this woman:

Here she is with her tin foil hat and garlic... no she is not insane, she is the right amount of crazy. She would do crazy shit like this just to get a laugh- and it worked. She is really an awesome woman! Besides... she got me footie pajamas for Christmas!

My friends are the best people I could have ever allowed into my life. They are supportive, loving, fun, and all around awesome. I love them.

So with the new year comes resolutions, right? SURE! OK, so my resolutions for this new year are:

1) To continue to eat healthy, and work hard to improve on that- since I do fall back now an again to the old ways (though I feel sick later for it). 

2) Continue to hit the gym and build my strength and lose this last ten pounds!

3) Become more motivated to keep up with my housework. Oh the never ending pile of laundry and dishes that sway my motivation to the computer and Facebook....

4) Maybe quit smoking??? I was able to lose weight, maybe I can do that too.... 

So what are your new years resolutions? What are the things that you look back and treasure from 2011?

To everyone who is reading this: May you have a wonderful and happy 2012.